About Daddy

I may need to first explain "Daddy". I've been asked many times by friends as I was growing up why I still call him Daddy. That sounds so childish. When I write it down, it does sound very elementary. However, when I say Daddy to his face, it's the most appropriate for me. I think it is just a "me" thing. I have always called my Daddy that. I've wondered, what is the definition of a "Daddy"?

He is loving, kind, hard-working, always there when you need him. He rules with an iron hand, but is as tender as needed when the time comes. He tells it like it is. He's not just a father to me, he's not just a dad to me. He is my Daddy. And that is special.

He had no problem saying to me "I love you son". I've heard him tell my siblings the same thing. He loves us all. A Daddy loves all of his children equally. It's not possible for a Daddy to love one child more than another. His main goal in this world was to raise his family as loving Christians. To provide for them as best he can, and see them to adulthood. And then....love them and be there for them when they needed him.

It's time to let God have him back. His plan appears to be that we can make it without him now. I don't understand that plan. It's not my place to question it. Our Father in heaven can see the master plan, the complete picture, and this is where I have to just believe, live my life as taught to me by my Daddy, and watch the plan unfold.

This blog was started as a place for me to place my thoughts on paper. I began quite a while back and have let it just sit. I never thought I'd be writing about the pending passing of my Daddy. This is just too much...too much. I know from my reading and studying that the good Lord will not put more on us than we can bear. And that is my safety net.

I have learned through this entire ordeal so far that I have not been supportive nor sorrowful enough for people, friends and relatives, who have lost loved ones. Oh My Goodness!!!! How did I not know that it hurts so much!!!!! I am so sorry for you who have already lost a loved one. So, so, sorry. This really hurts my heart so much.

I'm sure I'll write more later, I've just got to get some of this out and on paper. Thanks for carrying me through this. I have an entire host of family going through this with me. It's not all about me, this time. haha. I know that we are all hurting so much. We are here for each other and we'll get through this. My Mother says this is a "win-win" situation, and I'm doing my best to adopt her attitude. Thank you Mother, I love you.